Just some thoughts.

I haven't really written in a while, so I thought I would sit down and try to get something out. So, here it goes.

Life has been pretty amazing lately. I met someone who truly makes me happy and has their head on straight, which helps me a lot just in daily life. It's nice to have someone to confide in and just be completely, wholeheartedly honest with. You always watch those romantic movies and think to yourself, "That is so unrealistic, that never happens in real life," and yeah, it might not happen very often in real life, but it does happen. Those things you think no one experiences have actually happened to real people, they have. I have been experiencing things that I never thought I would, things I thought were truly meant for the movies. And it feels amazing, and kind of leaves me at a lose for words. Well, obviously not COMPLETELY at a lose for words, or I wouldn't be talking right now, would I? Anyway, yeah, life has been good and I'm just trying to live it all one day at a time right now, and live in the moment, cause the present is pretty damn good!

Work in Progress.

Space.
Absence of thought.
But also, the presence of thought.
The idea lingering.
Hanging by a thread.
Each word, one by one.
Connects into the next.
Until it all becomes a blur.
A mass of text.
A fog hanging over your head.

Persistent, constant, motion.
Unending. Unnerving.
Never stopping.
Never ceasing to sleep.
Or take a breath.

Work in progress.

Writer's Block, Of Sorts

I feel so uninspired lately. I don’t really know what to say or do, and it’s really throwing me off my game and messing with my head. It’s hard not to get depressed, or into a funk, when you have alone time on your hands. I keep trying to figure out my options and what I can do to help myself and get better, but no one else seems to want to help me in this mission and I keep getting pushed aside or looked at like a fool. I don’t want the wool pulled over my eyes; I’m not an idiot and I will not be made out to be one. I’m just so angry and upset and emotional lately (not necessarily today or this week, but it’s been a long time in the making) so I’m not surprised by this behavior and feeling at all, I just hoped by this point I would have been able to do something to change it, or something would have changed already. But, sadly, everything I thought had changed is actually the exact same as it was before; Same Shit, Different Day, as they say. I don’t know who “they” is/are, but it seems to be an appropriate statement to explain. Yeah....I’m drawing a blank. . .