I feel so uninspired lately. I don’t really know what to say
or do, and it’s really throwing me off my game and messing with my head. It’s
hard not to get depressed, or into a funk, when you have alone time on your
hands. I keep trying to figure out my options and what I can do to help myself
and get better, but no one else seems to want to help me in this mission and I
keep getting pushed aside or looked at like a fool. I don’t want the wool
pulled over my eyes; I’m not an idiot and I will not be made out to be one. I’m just so angry and upset and emotional
lately (not necessarily today or this week, but it’s been a long time in the
making) so I’m not surprised by this behavior and feeling at all, I just hoped
by this point I would have been able to do something to change it, or something
would have changed already. But, sadly, everything I thought had changed is
actually the exact same as it was before; Same Shit, Different Day, as they
say. I don’t know who “they” is/are, but it seems to be an appropriate
statement to explain. Yeah....I’m drawing a blank. . .
