Every time I wake up in the morning and open my eyes to a new day, it really is like starting all over again. I never know what I am going to get, from the people in my life, from my surroundings, from those that I randomly come across throughout the day.
I've always been a little hesitant when it comes to trusting people, even those close to me, just based on past experiences. But the more I become trustworthy of people, the more I realize who I can honestly trust and who is truly fooling me on a daily basis. People think they can say things behind ones back without them finding out, but they find out, one way or another. And I found out. And it really doesn't sit well with me. I have spent so much time putting trust in those that do not deserve it and have been disrespectful to me that I have neglected those around me that deserve my trust.
I have put so much energy into things that don't matter, and people that don't matter, that I have almost forgotten myself in the process. I am not focused on who I am anymore, and I am losing myself more and more. Every day is a new struggle and builds exponentially upon the next.
One thing I have learned through all of this is that you have to start by trusting one person, YOURSELF. If you cannot trust yourself, it becomes hard to make important decisions and move forward positively with your life.
Trust yourself.
