I'm not sure how I feel about this. I won't go into too much gory detail, of course.
I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I want, who I want around me. These are all things I am having some trouble determining at this point in time. I'm still young, so I feel I have time to make mistakes and take chances. I have time to recover from not exactly knowing what to do with myself.
I'm trying to figure out what words describe me and what exactly I am feeling right now. I can't seem to come up with the right set of words to form a sentence or two about what exactly has happened and how I feel about what has happened. At first, it seemed nice and, of course, I enjoyed the time. The next morning, I was a little confused and clingy, you could say. By the second day, I was completely over it and wondering what exactly made me act the way I did. I'm not sure what came over me, but I definitely think I could describe it as a momentary lapse in judgement, to say the least. I am definitely not looking for something like that to happen again, at least not how it did. Re-reading that last paragraph, what I am describing definitely sounds way worse, and dirtier, than it is.
It's hard to converse with people who are stuck in text mode at all times, especially when they have a hard enough time communicating in person without blending their words into a knot. I'm hoping for and seeking something a little bit more age appropriate.
The time will come.
