Closer to Chef-dom

Today was orientation. I cannot wait to get in the kitchen and cook. I'm nervous as hell, but I'm really happy that I'm finally getting the chance to do something I love and enjoy. I'm hoping I'll enjoy cooking and food as much as I do now, once I've gotten into the kitchen and really start feeling like a chef. I don't know what defines a "chef," or when the moment is that you become a chef, but I do know that I'm closer to being a chef with this job than I ever was before.


Oh goodness, I just can't wait....

Identity Crisis

Is it just me, or does it seem like we can't find ourselves these days? Nothing's original anymore and we walk around pretending to be something that we aren't. You were born a certain way with a certain name and at some point in time, you feel the need, or desire, to change those things. A name is a name, it isn't going to make you any better than you are. And it sure as hell isn't going to get you anymore friends.

Sorry, ranting.

/done.

Thought Process

It’s hard to get out all of the things that I want to say. Things have been changing a lot and I’m not sure how to take much of it.

I finished culinary school and am very excited about that, but now what? It still hasn’t quite hit me how much time I spent there and how much of my life and energy has been focused on school, but I’m sure I’ll realize soon. Just not now.

I have a page open with 3 or 4 different ideas running on it that I can’t seem to find the thought process to finish, or continue. I want to get back into writing, but I haven’t written anything in a very long time. I’ve been so focused on school and finding another job that I haven’t had time to analyze, or even feel, what I’m feeling. I still don’t really know what I’m feeling, about anything, I just want to do something more than what I’m doing right now.

Friendships seem to always hit a snag at some point where you think it’s the end of the world, or you think something in your friendship is going to shift or change forever. I’m not sure that either of these scenarios is true, seeing as I don’t have enough people around me to really test this theory, but I’m sure some of us have hit this point and thought something similar to this. You get to a point where you’ve known someone for so long that the friendship becomes monotonous and predictable. 

I’m hitting that point.